After a long time, I finally had another "one of those days" where things just don't go right. Well, at least most of the things that happened. And I haven't felt this angry for a long, long, long time. All of it just because of a stupid guy in the NBI office who suddenly decided to invoke chaos by not following the number ordering to get the goddamned NBI clearance update. 

It might just be a "boiling over" after arguing with my sister yesterday, as well as the pressure with issues at work. Hoo-boy. I hope I don't explode like I did before. If I know myself enough, if I don't get some way to exhale all this problems somehow I'll end up exploding like a volcano. 

Anyway, enough of that boring nonsense. 

A cool update is that I found a pretty-much active coven locally. At least with this, our hope of waking Bacolod up will not fall into oblivion. 

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1/19/2009 Sunday

8:40 AM

I'm just writing a very delayed report about the Psychic Investigation we did last November of 2008. I was given a mission to help out someone, although I had no idea what it was about. The week before, I've watched a shoot-out incident on TV where one businessman was murdered, and thought how interesting it would be to investigate it. I didn't think about it again until I met the contact person for the mission and finally figured out I'm dealing with that particular murder.

I was totally clueless how to start since I've never done any kind of Investigation before. So I started by asking for details about event. I brought Alecto and Sidney with me, since they have the abilities needed for this Investigation. Three would suffice, more would be a bother. We only need to make sure that we're not getting delusional information from our fantasies. I have to explain my reasons for including these two instead of anyone else.

Alecto is very perceptive, intuitive and is emotionally sensitive, so she can easily sense emotions and what else could be going on with people, or an area. I never tested her for the latter, but since we're dealing with ghosts or spirits, I think it would suffice. She is also familiar with indigenous "cures" which might help if in case we encounter an aggressive spirit, though I highly doubted we would have such a problem.

Sidney can see non-physical entities, not symbolically or intuitively, but physically, sometimes when she focus, and at times out of nowhere, when spirits choose to manifest. She's also moderately intuitive.

So basically, the group consisted of receptive people, and not projective ones. I gathered that we will have to try and receive perceptions and messages from the spirit, not attack or banish it, and at worst, we only needed to request that it leave in peace, in case it is being disruptive. If it comes to worse, I can ask for extra help, but I expect it to happen as much as I expect that Godzilla will attack the country at the time of our Investigation.

Our initial Investigation provided us with information about the spirit, simply that he is restless and that he is looking for something important. Also talking about a bag or a case. From what I gather, either it is not aware of us or doesn't want to bother with us. Touching the walls, or the gate, of the place where he died, I saw a curled dragon, like a tattoo, and also a house at night at a distance. I had no idea what this meant, but I mentioned it anyway, but none of them understands it either. Meanwhile, Sidney and Alecto noted that they see someone moving around inside, and the inside is misty. I noted that I can see clearly inside and didn't notice anyone moving. The friends of the deceased said there's nobody inside, but wondered why the lights were on.

We also noticed two entities roaming around, one kind of cold, the other is warm and kind of aggressive. The family noted that a helper died before, but not in this place, but almost considered the place his home. The same thing with the recently deceased, he brought things to his workplace and almost lived there. The other spirit had nothing to say as far as I can tell.

I needed to hook up with the other two to get their comments regarding the event.

I also need to note that there was a "medium" who appeared in the event afternoon of the next day, to hold some sort of "seance". Our own contact person contacted her saying that she was very good in card/palm reading, and was also capable of seeing spirits and holding seance, and get the spirit possess her. She didn't channel the spirit, but keeps saying he's standing "here" and "there". The sentence that took hold of some of them, especially the wife, was when she said "kwarta lang na" which roughly translates "it's just money" when it comes to money matters, and the others said he usually says it. The brother, along with some of the friends gathered, is more skeptical of her, but trusts us. One, who has the potential to see ghosts physically but dislikes her gift, even said that she wondered when the "medium" was upgraded from "card reader".

In summary, the medium is too melo-dramatic, and I don't really feel what she's talking about, and she keeps shaking like she's cold, explaining that she does that when the spirit is "touching" her, but it looked too much like acting. She's a decent intuit and though she have the potential for it, her skills are mostly untested or unrefined. I doubt she can see spirits at all.

Later, we were also told that the spirit often manifests to the sister and her maid, who can also sense spirits, and the latter ended up leaving for her homeland in Siquijor to avoid the encounters. They requested a priest to ask the spirit to leave and not bother them. We were told that the priest was also accompanied by sensitive, a girl who can also see and sense spirits, and she verified the spirits left. After that, we didn't hear anything from them again.

What is Magick? part 2

The most popular definition of Magick is Aleister Crowley's, which says that Magick is:

"the art and science of causing change to occur in conformity with will."

Although some people add "... using non-scientific or indirect means," and I would agree with that. Otherwise, simply moving a chair and putting it somewhere else can be considered "Magick."

People usually have the idea that Magick is all about casting spells, going invisible, pulverizing your enemies, and declaring the future. While yes, you can do those things and more, Magick also focuses on developing oneself as a person. A lot of people ignore this area, and that is why we have so many would-be practitioners who fall by the way-side; either they were disappointed in discovering what Magick is really all about, or they didn't get the point.

Admittedly, I don't believe that Magick is the only way. It would be similar to saying that people should only study biology and not astronomy. It was Phil Hine who first said "Magick... is NOT for all," and I have to agree with him. Not everyone is fit, or ill-prepared mentally and spiritually, for this path. People need to find their own path, and be sincere about it.

Although in this city of Bacolod, in particular, we are an endangered specie. Not too many people know what Magick, and the Occult in general, really is. Some dismiss it simply as superstition, and others were taught it is evil. It is neither of these. But the Art is dying in this city, which is strange enough now that information is easily spread across the internet.

It is a challenge to us left here to promulgate the Art of Magick, and the Knowledge of the Occult, to the next generation, so that all may not be lost.

Are we prepared to do our part?

What is Magick?

In our world, technology seems to be in the forefront. Superstitions are taking a back seat, and everything is digitalized. Miniaturization shows a lot of possibilities. The world is getting smaller because of communication getting easier. We're starting to understand a lot more of the world.

So how come we're still confused?

How come depression and mental instability is at an all-time high? Everyone seems to be looking for another person to complete them. Does this not not suggest that they feel incomplete themselves? Because people feel incomplete, they desire for more.

The more popular modern method of getting ones' wishes granted is through prayer. Strange that a world of science still believes in an unproven entity. Stranger still that people still revert to spells if they think it is more effective.

However, not a too many people understand spells, and the whole idea of "magic(k)." They think it is something someone has learned through some sort of bloodline, or something special that can only be gained through strenuous and dangerous tasks. 

Magick (spelled with a 'k' to differentiate it from tricks or prestidigitation) is quite simply making full use of our innate capabilities. Muscles only developed when used. So does magick. But only proper training can use properly develop the skills to make good use of your muscles. This is the same with magick. Indiscriminate use, and abuse, of this skill will backfire. Perhaps the glaring example is the story of Faust.

But despite this, there are many others who achieved knowledge and wisdom through proper application of magick.

I will stop here for now, and hopefully, this will not be my last post on this. Comments, questions and reactions are very much welcome. Feel free to contact me anytime.

I don't like bloody scenes. It's been overused. I prefer getting a good scare without the blood, because I think it takes much effort to do that. So far, I really enjoyed El Orfanato. Far less blood, and more on the shock and psychological value. Very nice ending too. I mean, how often can you say that for a scary movies? For me, that's a first.

A Glimpse Into Magic
First released under my online name FrozenStar

Those who are inspired by magical TV series run off to find the nearest bookstore and buy the latest, grandest-looking spell book they could find. But is this world of the Occult all fun and frolic? Check your facts; you might be going into something too fast: so take a look into this article before you leap. -- Frozen Star.

It seems that magical practices of the west are slowly being integrated into this country. Although our land has its own native magical practices, the influx of information from other paths has created much interest in the hearts and minds of curious people who are drawn into the unknown.

But unfortunately, these magical paths from the west are usually misunderstood due to over-enthusiastic students who think that magic is simply anything you make of it, and that anyone can be a high priest or priestess at whim. Curious at the over-confidence of someone I knew who has merely read one website about spells and already declared herself “high priestess” about four years ago, I started to wonder if there is a “correct” way to approach magic.

For those who have observed, though, there is no single “correct” way in approaching magic. It depends on each person. Putting to mind some guidelines will greatly help the novice in this quest into the realms of the unknown.

The Reason Why I'm Here Is...

First off, you must ask yourself what your purpose is for getting into a magical path. Life, as it is, is already confusing enough. Are you sure you want to add another subject to study, like potions and theories of magic, along with your algebra and calculus subjects? Spend some time (a long time, in fact) reflecting on your wants, needs, and desires. Know yourself thoroughly. It will help you avoid losing track of your goals in the future and feeling regret over what you are doing.

Omega-Super-Duper Fireball Attack!

Try not to take everything you read at face value. This rings true for those who were “inspired” to get into magical studies because of TV shows and movies. While those are quite fascinating shows, they are not a reflection of the truth. Keep in mind that the practice of magic is a serious study, and it takes literally years to really get a good grasp of one aspect of it. This is the reason why there are so many practitioners out there who give up within their first year, or those who claim to be an high priestess within the same year (even the same month, I heard) that they started reading about magic.

There are bad apples in every batch, and that is very true when it comes to magical studies. Since there’s no central authority on this, there are a lot of people claiming to be something they’re not. Some refer to them as fakes, charlatans, or dabblers. But just because somebody called someone a charlatan doesn’t mean that that somebody is not a charlatan as well. Keep that in mind.

Always use reason and sound judgment. The magical path is not a place for you to abandon reason and worship the first person you meet, just because he claims to be someone great. To forego your reasons is to end up being used and abused to meet someone else’s selfish ends. So always weigh a person’s words against common sense and morality.

Now, Turn To Page Seventy-Eight On The Chapter About Psychic Vampires...

Perhaps the surest way to avoid being used or abused is to read materials about magic as much as is possible for you. This is not so much of a problem anymore since the internet easily gives everyone what they need to know. However, not all websites claiming “knowledge” about the unknown are sound ones. It seems impossible, but you can still be influenced by a certain belief just by reading about it. As mentioned previously, always weigh the words of anyone, in any website, against common sense and morality.

Also, there are good lists of books about western occultism that have reached our bookstores lately. Don’t be too hasty to buy the first book that got your attention: you might just be disappointed. Use the internet to see how it rates, and if possible skim through the pages and see if you like the tone of the author and the idea that he or she presents. Most people ignore it, but the summary at the back of the book is of great help as well, giving you an overview of the contents.

On The Power Of Three... Or Four... Or Five...?

First and foremost, do not start a coven after only about one month of study into magic. Especially if your coven sisters and brothers know magic only about as much as you do. It will lead to much misconceptions and disappointments. Since all of you are more or less new into it, your determination to follow through, despite storms and landslides, is still questionable. If you don’t doubt yourself, then don’t be too sure that your fellow sisters and brothers feel the same. It can save you from blaming yourself later.

If you plan to join an established group, or to form one that has a knowledgeable and respectable head (or heads) , first make sure that they respect you for who you are, including your ideas. No one should try to fit anyone into a certain mold just so they’ll fit the image of a certain group. Magic is an individual expression, and a group is there to properly guide each one to his own self-realization.

Watch out for power plays as well. Although the ultimate aim of magic is to find illumination, there are those who use their powers for selfish ends. Just because someone is deep in the magic practice doesn’t mean that he or she is enlightened. If you find a group where the leader reminds you of a dictator, or if he or she can’t seem to handle his or her own problems, or if the members backbite each other (even the leader) , it’s time to look for another one.

Another thing to watch out for: nobody should try to force you into doing something that you’re not comfortable with. Admittedly, there are covens that do rituals skyclad, i.e., nude. If you don’t feel comfortable with it, you shouldn’t let yourself be carried away by words like: “You must do it if you want to join in the coven.” Find another path that you feel will suit you.

Greetings, Novice...

There are a lot of teachers out there, but do keep in mind: not all of them are credible. Some will throw claims of being a 99th level Sorcerer, Wizard, or whatnot. Use your own reasoning, ask a lot of questions. In fact, it seems to be the case that novices are afraid of asking questions for fear of being labeled a “newbie” or ignorant. Be honest if you don’t know anything. If the person criticizes you for not knowing anything, that’s a very good clue to get away from that person. Everyone starts somewhere, even the teacher, and a sympathetic teacher will understand where you stand, because he or she has been there.

As with covens, nobody should make you do something that is against your will, nature or morals.

Now, Which Path To Take? The Fastest... Or The Grandest?

When a novice starts searching for his own path into the magic world, he or she will not always find a diverse group of practices or paths. Perhaps the most popular path that comes up when searching using search engines is Wicca. While it is an honorable path in itself, due to the number of its adherents it can give the novice an impression that it is the only “real” path, and that all others are “fictional” names of that same path. As such, Wicca is often a novice’s introductory path into the magic world, and while some do stay and commit themselves, some search for a path that fits to their nature more. But to be sure, make a study and research of the various paths first, know their history and techniques, and see if they fit you. Also, the philosophies of the different paths do vary, so make sure their beliefs agree with your own so you won’t feel lost or out-of-place somewhere in the middle of the path.

Here is a list of some western magical paths that might help you get started:

Wicca – originally started by Gerald Gardner, it was said that this is a revival of the old path of the Witch. Practices include Earth/Nature-centered rituals and meditations, and belief in diverse gods from diverse cultures. This path is more intuitional than analytic.

Hermetics – a path that aims to elevate the spiritual over the mundane, this path focuses on techniques that help the student contact and reach their Higher Selves, and attain enlightenment through the use of techniques and rituals. This usually means poring over study materials and various techniques on magic and enlightenment.

Chaos Magic – this path is usually taken by those who already have experience in the more ceremonial-centered paths, but it is not unusual to find programmers and other logic-related workers in this path. This centers more on the effect of a certain technique rather than pre-written dogma and set of formulae.

Necromancy – while this is probably one of the paths most sought-after by novices who have been saturated in role-playing games, this path is definitely not for the novice. This path requires a lot of training and discipline, not to mention proper guidance from a qualified mentor, as well as years of experience with magical practice.

Kabbala – usually spelled in many other spellings with the same pronunciations, this path is originally a Jewish study, but has been integrated into different magical practices, most notably by the Golden Dawn, although legend has it that only those at the age forty and above can truly understand the writings necessary to begin the true study of this path.

Enochian – created by John Dee, this is a path for those inclined towards ritual and Angels. While different systems have varied views of angels, the Angels in the Enochian system are not to be treated as mere “fairies” and guides, but as very powerful entities. The system is very strict with measurement and rituals, and it has been said that one small mistake can cause a great deal of damage to the person. However, there are also opposing views about this path, as it seems blasphemous to attempt to control Angels to do ones' will.

Shamanism – while Wicca has some similarities with Shamanism, there are enough differences to make a distinction. For one, Shamanism does not necessarily require one to believe in the tenets that Wiccans of the previous century have created. Rather, Shamans usually rely on tribal wisdom and beliefs passed on to them through teaching and guidance of another Shaman, and reliance on Spirit Guides and Animal Totems are more common in Shamanism than in any other paths.

There are still many practices out there that I might have missed, but it is up to the Seeker to find his own path.

Well, Friend, Haven't Seen Yet In This Tavern Before...

We’ve all experienced a time when we feel the need to connect with other practitioners. While some probably started with online communities, the need to connect on a physical level, to finally realize that there is someone who has similar interests and practices, is often a very good experience.

While it is indeed a good practice to meet up with others, it is not always a safe one. Take heed that there are others out there who will pretend to be the High Priest or Priestess of two hundred covens just to get your attention. As with religion, there are also wolves in sheep’s clothing in the magic path, out to get your money and attention.

The best thing to do is to bring along a trusted friend whose opinion you value and who can objectively criticize the personality of the person you are about to meet.

It can sometimes happen that you do not agree with another practitioner’s opinions or practices, or vice versa. Be civil. Remember that the magical world has a host of varied practices and practitioners. Besides, there’s no one authoritative “Bible” for magical practitioners, and it’s pointless to start one; it’s been attempted several times, after all.

Now... How Do I Make My First Step...?

Basically, always maintain your common sense when it comes to the magical world. You won’t achieve anything by throwing your reason out the window. And maintain a civil attitude. Don’t be so smug about your own beliefs and practices, or think that yours is superior to someone else’s. Going into the magical world is not escaping into another dimension where only happiness and adventure exist; dangers and challenges also abound.

But no matter what path one takes, it will ultimately lead to one goal, and that is to improve oneself and the Universe.



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Footnotes:
This article was first published last August 2007 in the http://manggagaway-central.blogspot.com/
It was published next on http://www.witchvox.com/ under my old online name FrozenStar (though I don't use the name anymore) last November 18th. 2007.
And lately, it was released by http://mysteriummagazine.i.ph/

These are decent websites about the Esoteric and the Occult. Pls take time to visit them. Many thanks!

I've been silent for a while due to work. And also since I'm looking for more sidelines to get cash. Hopefully, I can apply for a different position once the latest LOB opens up.

Writing has always been my outlet (followed by drawing) when I'm thinking of things, but most of what I think never gets written mostly because I don't have a pen handy during that time, or not near a computer. It's sad though, since I've thought pretty interesting (if not whacked-up) things.

I'm into experimenting with Aspects of Personalities, and Languages (although the latter is a bit of a challenge) and weaving it together into my practice. Sort of.

Anyway, I have a few things more to do, so I can't stay long. I have to comment next time on Bane's latest idea. Too bad he's using blogspot, and I'm not sure I can invite him here. Oh well.

I seem to be out of words. I just don't feel like writing anything, or doing anything. Maybe the fact that I had to work for eight straight days is one reason. Even if I feel like I wanted to write something, when I'm just about to type or write it, nothing goes into my head. It's like nobody's home. I guess I'm just too tired from work, and not to mention family concerns, especially with my sister wasting our money every opportunity she gets. It's like she doesn't hear me when I say "I've got no more money."

I'm just venting out. Otherwise I'd explode. Hopefully, the rit I did during the full moon will amount to something.

Oh, speaking of, I was asked to make a new sigil for a cause. Hopefully, this will distract me long enough. Maybe even jumpstart the creative juices again.

It is so easy to assume one thing about a person. Especially if you don't go and check if it's correct. Sitting on the side and being a wallflower most of the time, people seemingly assumed that I'm an overall "nice guy" who will just "go with the flow", who will not react even if pushed.

Which is how they woke up to a rude awakening when I talked back. It's been, what, grade five, since I last got a reaction like that. Seemed like I was the only one talking on the floor and everyone else are just listening or getting out of the way. I love it! I like shocking people, usually in a good, clean, fun way, but if I'm pushed, then it doesn't matter if they fall down when I push back.

At least it wasn't as bad as that fifth grade incident. I know better. Still awesome though.

Gods and Thought-forms

This rambling started from a chat over batchoy last June 29, after a friend talked about her experience with a different religious group.

People usually make quite a fuss over what is right and what is wrong, which theory is effective and which one is just bull. Unfortunately, I don't have the nerve, nor the time, to make which ones are the right ones. But I do have enough time to kill to write about what the hell is going on; why do two or more contradictory theories work?

What I have right now is just one theory (argh!) on the possibilities.
Let's try two contradictory beliefs. A Magical Worldview and Religious Worldview. To a Magician, the world is magical. "Energy" exists all around to be molded, and will is used to mold it. That energy is used to manifest the magician's will. The accuracy of the effect depends on the magician's focus, how intently and purposefully he focussed on the effect, with a united mind and effort. For this, the magician surrounds himself with implements for the purpose, like green candles, incense, paper, green ink, etc. Then he will direct all the energy collected by focussing on his will.

The Religious do a somewhat similar thing, but from a different perspective. God's "will" is all around us, from the death of a fly to the armageddon, all is his will. The accuracy of the religious' desire depends on his focus, same as the magician. The difference is that the religious is already surrounded by implements, complete with a group that agrees with his world-view, and shuns and despises all the others. This creates a ridiculously focussed mind that shuns distractions. Everything is God's will, and as he is God's chosen, God will grant his desires. A friend mentioned that one sample is a religious that was selling bibles door-to-door got so mad at a person who wouldn't buy that he asked God to burn the house, and it did after a few or so. But instead of feeling guilt, the person felt happy that God granted his desire, meaning that he is "close" to God.

The problem with the magician is that he is, more often than not, open-minded, and so there are a lot of distractions; as opposed to the religious that doesn't even know what a tamagochi is (I mean, seriously, even our humble town knows it), the religious therefore is much more capable of focussing on his deity, since his life revolves around it. Of course, any success in personal magick is now ascribed to the deity. This creates a powerful thought-form, and with continued use, it will further gain in power. Of course, whatever is acribed to the religious' "God", such as vengefulness, wrath, bloody-mindedness, the thought-form will also take in. As such, if the religious side-steps even a bit away from what he thought is the unbreakable teachings of the deity, then the thought-form manifests punishment, the strength depending on the power of the thought-form. So it's a double-edged sword; as much as the religious can punish his enemies, he will be punished as well.

The practice of devotion to a deity is practiced in a form of Yoga, called Bhakti Yoga. The Bhakta devotes himself to the chosen deity and do all his works in its name, and all events that happen are due to the deity's influence.

As such, if you have a vengeful deity, you will have a powerful but dangerous deity. But if you instead ascribe kindness and love to a deity, it works the same way. The latter example can be seen in the life of the late Mother Theresa, in which instead of viewing God as the vengeful deity of the Old Testament, she viewed it as a loving and caring God who wants peace among all men (and women, duh). You see the difference in manifestation when you change your perspective?

Well, that's about it for now. I ran out of things to ramble about. I was typing something more but I accidentally deleted the notepad I was typing it on.

It is a person who can manage to overcome his own demons, and help others overcome their own.

Well well. I never expected that I'd actually reach the point where I will be teaching new Seekers. I'm kind of excited, and I hope they are too.

My process will be a bit strict but I hope they'll see the point. This isn't a path for the lazy after all. Sorcerers and Mages don't sit on their butt for decades and just come out when they want to play with their powers.

Tests were already secretly given, the time for judging will not take too long. I am curious to see who among them will excel.

But aside from that, there seems to be controversies in the North. I feel that he must not  trust some of those whom he think he can trust. It might come out very bad in the end.

But I'm just rambling here. I don't see the point of giving a comment about that if I'm not there.

I was sleeping in the TP sleeping quarters this time. We had VTO so I was planning to go back to the boarding house, but seeing that Nang Grace has not replied, I assumed she wasn't there. So I slept around 3 am inside the sleeping quarters.

I felt the spin that I've read so much about and which I experienced a lot when I was young. This time though, I reached a level I haven't reached before, and that is the point of separation. I was spinning til I felt that I'm going to be thrown out of my body, which was fine with me. Then I felt like I was "free". A feeling of expansion. I see something like an orange glow around me, and I see the sleeping quarters. However, having experienced a similar Astral-Dream, I was more cautious. I observed things around to check, and I did notice that the place looked different. I tried to hold on to my awareness, but it faded a moment later.

COMMENT:

I was sleeping on my back, and kind of uncomfortable since I was using my bag as a pillow, which hurts a bit.
I keep on going back on awakedness because there are other people in the room.
I did progressive relaxation, the 100 countdown failed, I keep getting stuck in 95 to 93.

I had a lucid dream that I thought was an Astral Projection.
At first I was in a full fledge dream. It had a gothic theme to it. The place was Marc's house, or someplace similar. I remember that Emerald was there, but I am not sure who else. She was showing me pictures of Guian and Bane, and how they love each other. I was not really interested but she keeps showing it anyway. Then there was an incident when a woman either does not want to go back to sleep or doesn't want to wake up. That's when I realize that I was in a dream, and then I felt I was in my body again face down on the bed. Then I willed myself to slowly move my soul out of my body while I was still in a half-awake position. I was able to pull myself out, or so it seems. I sat down on my bed, and, feeling uneasy, I recited the Pater Noster. I noticed some towels hanging down the upper bed. I then stood up, still reciting. It seems dark, either nighttime or almost daybreak. I walked into the hallway of the boarding house, then outside. I saw the sun almost coming out of the East, but not yet lighting the sky. The sky is still dark.

My mind was a jumble, so the next thing I did was to climb up to the roof. I made noise, but, thinking it's still Astral Projection, I assumed it comes off as "ghostly" noise. Then I noticed two guys from afar and they seem to be able to see me. One climbed up to see me, and when he reached me, we started at each other for about 3 seconds, then I decided to scare him by acting like a "ghost". He did run down. Then I pulled myself up to one of the top roofs. Then I noticed two women who seem to be able to see me. I thought I was still Astral Projecting, so I wondered, and I shouted at their direction, asking if they can see me. They said yes. Then I started to wonder if it is real or Astral Projection. I didn't realize it was still a dream. When I looked down at the height I climbed, I felt concern over my body. Then I was back on my body on the bed.

I tried to AP again but was solidly back in my body.

Comments:

I was half-awake the entire day, since I barely had any sleep. I believe it helped.
I was barely aware of my self during the entire time.
I will write my extra notes next time. I'm short on time.

I've been practicing self-hypnosis this week, to make myself relax for and during work, and ultimately for self-healing. I initially followed the steps in the Healing Yourself book, but used my old Hypnosis book for going 'deeper'. So I was at that point.

During my shift earlier today, after I ate a LOT of food, I had a strange feeling that the next caller will be a Filipino. Beyond question and doubt, and I was feeling happy. The next call came, and from the voice, it sure sounded like a Filipino, and when I got her last name (in fact, even the first name is kind of suggestive), it was  Pinoy-like. But of course, I have to maintain my professionalism. I was thinking of asking her some non-leading questions during troubleshooting (if it took longer) but we can't continue because she has no admin privileges on her computer and needed to ask their helpdesk for the password, and she said she'll just call back. Just as we are about to end the call, she asked me where I'm from and so naturally I had to answer, and then she talked in Tagalog. It is unfortunate that we can't continue because she needs the password for now, but assured her that at least the next time she calls our dept she'll undoubtedly talk to another Filipino.

Right now, I'm not sure what caused that pre-cognitive ability to surface. Maybe because of hypnosis, or maybe of my Bardonic Hermetic practice.

Or maybe because my stomach's full.